Hey guys, I'm not sure when I last hit this blog but my apologies once again rattle in between my words as I take time to pen my disjointed thoughts once again.
I have been so busy. Things seem to be spiraling this year already I'm sure it will be December before I know it. And you know what, the old me is clawing at my feelings and timetable. I have felt the pang of frustration and stress start to overtake my person once again. I refused to sleep tonight until I had time to reflect on the day and the goodness in it. To squelch the negativity that rises like bile in my mind, over taking everything, making the slightest smile or happy thought a test of endurance and acting worthy of any academy award.
But once again I refocus, lay my life and honest thoughts to page. We start again... I'm reminded of my relationship with God and those around me. Always got to refocus, refine and refuel.
Today I realized that I had almost triple booked myself for a night later this week. Had to find a way to fix it... I'm sick of fixing it, always trying to keep all the things that fight for my attention in the air, most of them legit and honorable goals and priorities. Like my family, friends and work... They all need time... I really just don't think I have it... Or maybe I do and I use it badly... Perhaps so, but I am still here at 2am taking some time for me cause it feels like the only time I can.
Gee I whinge don't I. Need to harden up and deal with it, yet that's the status quo for the last 10 years... How long should I keep this up...
Well I just reread that... It's not very cheery but lets see what some refocus and a good few hours sleep does... Haha
Thanks
Tim
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