Yasi...not as big as Gods Love

It's the topic of every news report and brings a new meaning to the obligatory "so the weather" conversation starter, but it's seems impossible to reflect on a day like today without mentioning it. Life seems fragile again. Though not just physical life. Relationships are just as susceptible to huge tides and runs of destructive winds which tear at their fabric. I hear today of a family, torn apart by years of marital miscommunication and infidelity only to rip apart two families each with 3 kids.

It seems amazing that God would decide to love and cherish something so fragile, so needing of protection and love. As humans we destroy the earth and spit in Gods face, yet he loves us. It doesn't seem to matter what happens to us, what relationships are flattened in our sinful stupidity or the physical pain or suffering our human body feels, one thing and only one remains the same... We are loved, even of we don't reciprocate... We are loved.

Today I am hit by the strength, depth and constant nature of God's love. The amazing saving work of our savior Jesus, leads me to feel so proud and in awe of God. We have been given so much, despite the weather and situations that cause us to feel at wits end. What a special gift and a special God.

Thanks

Tim

We are what we eat or what get feed to us...

There was a kid at work today who has been diagnosed with all the letters after his name that you can imagine and has a list of ADHD etc medication to follow. The debate about that I won't even enter but I realized something. Without judging, as much as I could maintain an open mind, I assessed this kids development and growth up to his now young age of 10 or so. His mum was stressed, had a screaming 3 yr old and seemed ready to explode. I asked the optom on how the test had gone and he told me a sad story. In the middle of the test he had asked the kid just to get his mind off the bright lights in his eyes, what he had had for breakfast. His response... Potato gems and a spring roll.

Now I feed my kid crap all the time, and my kid screams ever now and again as well. Thats not really my point, but this kids lifestyle and growing up must have contributed to his behavior now. Crap in = crap out

It caused me to look at my life and growth up to my now old 27 years... What bad habits have I learned... What has contributed to my attitudes, belief and lifestyle choices which I didn't even realize where changing me. What boxes and labels have I pinned to my chest in the vain hope of giving me excuse or easy fix. When God took the reins did I really let him wipe the slate clean and wash me whiter than snow or did I just tackle the stuff I thought was important...

So today wasn't so much a day for answers but one of self assessment and reflection. I need to clear the way for God to do what he wants with everything that is me, including the stuff that influenced who I have become. He promises to make me a new man, not a reshelled, relabeled old one.

Thanks
Tim

What a grouch

First of all,

I just wrote this huge post and lost it.... So frustrated....

It went something like this.

What a grump i have been the last few days. I have been struggling so much with getting upset at stupid things and frustrated with the unimportant. Im sure that my poor wife is having a very average time trying to live with me, probably for the last few months. I wonder if i am depressed... Now there is a great buzz word. You won't however hear me actually ever use at to describe myself. Once you know what ails you you have an excuse and put yourself in a box. No boxes for me thank you very much, fine for others but not me. But I wonder. It goes on from my laser post, no direction, no hope.

The world tells me that what i do, how much money i make, what stuff i have and what i wear tells me who i am and defines me. You know what, no matter how much i try i believe it. I try to reprogram myself to not care, but it never works. I feel like i want to be remembered, i want to do someone special, i want to change the world and be rich and famous. I want to find significance in myself and what i can achieve... However bible says... Da dunnnn wrong answer... Dam bible in the way of easy, world pleasing answer. But that doesn't seem to matter, in my heart of hearts i still feel like i want to be awesome at something.... Oh no... Early mid life crisis coming... Wheres my red sports car...

This blog is part of my reprograming, its me trying to realize the real important things... The problem is i know what they should be, but i struggle with the rebranding, the new management and the God friendly framework. He must increase and i must decrease... I know that money, career and power a great man do not make... But like i always say, it would bloody well help.

I need to learn to appreciate the little important things but i really suck at it... Wow i go a lot of green fur to shed yet...

Thanks
Tim